Health part 1

Happy Wednesday everyone! The week is almost over.. That is reason to smile. 

I wanted to talk about health today. I'm going to be doing a part serious about health. 

Let me first say I suck at health! You see Health and I don't see eye to eye.. Health seems to think I'm fat and lazy.. Oh wait thats me. Kidding. 

I am the biggest I have ever been. Even durning my 3 pregnancies.  At least I think so.. I never did follow the scale when I was pregnant and I just got one maybe a year ago. lol 

I weighed myself today. I weigh 182.4 That is bad but I'm telling you all this not to make fun of my self but to hopeful become self aware and maybe help someone else like me.

Let me take you back to my childhood. I was skinny.. Like clothes falling off skinny. I felt like it took me forever to get to the big kid sizes. 

Now in my teen years I was skinny too. I hated to run the mile!! That was the worst! I did walk a lot thought. 

It was when I hit my adult hood when I realized that I was gaining weight, but even then I was not fat. I did not work out. I did not watch what I eat. I would just eat. 

I remember my sister going on an all protein diet.. I thought "Okay lets give this a shot" I did it for one meal. I just did not have self control. 

A few years ago I had a surgery. (every pregnancy is a surgery, C sections and all) I don't know if you do this or if its just me but I loose weight when my body goes though a big change like that. Also I had to have a blood transition and I eat crackers for like 2 days.. 

After that and the doctor gave me the clear, I started a gym membership. I wanted to keep what I lost off. This was the first time I tried anything like this and I also got  a personal trainer. I worked out for 4 or 5 months. I would try to go twice a week but most of the time I ended up going once a week. I loved the trainer and the people but it was a lot of money. I also felt what I was learning I could do at home so I quit the gym and thought I will do this at home. 

I was also learning to eat healthy foods for the first time in my life. Growing up we just eat what was there and easy. 

I stopped eating health and fell off the track I was going for. That was (I think) last year at this time. I lost a little bit of weight but what I really noticed was my clothes they would fit baggy. Now I can't even fit into those clothes. 

So.. now that you know a little but of my story, I bet your sitting there and thinking "So Beth, What is your plan?" 

I want to find a medium. I don't want to go nuts with the health thing but I do want to take better care of myself and control what I eat. 

Now that I said that its easy.. Right!! 

I wish.. I'm going to work out at least 4 times a week. For how ever long I can.  Yes, from home.. Being a mom and all. I'm not going to eat out, and I'm going to try to at least eat two healthy meals ( I say two because I normally try to make dinner normally and not go nuts with the health thing because of my kids)  a day and 3 health snacks. I'm also going to watch potion sizes and hopefully eat more fruits and veggies. 

I'm going to try to give you all a little update ever Wednesday, But mostly I will come back in 3 weeks and tell you all where I'm at and then again in another 3 weeks. I know that I might have my fall backs but I can do this!! at least that is what I keep telling myself..

I was going to do pictures and all but really I'm not that brave. 

By doing this I'm hoping that I will look back and see my struggles or my success. 

I will however show you a picture of me two years ago and a picture of me when I went to the gym. I don't feel like I see much difference in this picture. The one on the left is two years ago and the one on the right is like a year ago.

I'm doing this because I want to be active and be able to get my son when he runs away or ride bikes with my kids. I also want to just fit in my old clothes. Yes, They are a size 14 but I can't even fit into that. I also want to feel better about myself and I notice that I hated working out but I felt better about myself when I did. So here goes nothing..

Much love, 

Beth